17 Jul 2011 5 Comments
I have finally reached the 38-week mark! After 5 long weeks on hospital bed rest, unwanted contractions & a seemingly endless needle pokes, reaching this milestone is truly a huge blessing from God. As my bed rest time draws to a close, I realized that the most important things I’ve done for my sanity while on bed rest is letting go and holding on.
Letting go of all the worries and what ifs. Letting go of the sadness of not being able to take care of Jordan; not being able to change his diaper, give him bath, feed him, play with him, and tuck him in at night. Letting go of thinking I have control over everything. Letting go of life as I knew it. And then, holding on. Holding on to the fact that God wants good things for me and my family and
So tomorrow is the big day and I can’t tell you how relieved and happy I am. I’m beyond excited to see, hold and kiss my Jelly B. To be honest, I’m nervous about surgery, but I know that God is with me and that I’ll be just fine. I’m in great hands and I’m very confident in my doctor’s ability. I’m looking forward to seeing Jordan hold and kiss his baby brother/sister. Like what Michael said this morning, it’s like Christmas in July and we get to finally open our present.